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It's not for me. I've only smoked weed about 3 times and I didn't enjoy it either time. The first time was the worst of all. I was dissociated from reality for about a month. I can't even say it now and it makes me laugh. But when it happened to me it was terrible. I felt like I was in a dream and nothing was real, that I wasn't real. I had that feeling for several days. The second time was also unpleasant. I wanted to smoke with a friend and then go out for ice cream and my vision was completely altered. The third and last time, my vision was also altered but I managed it better and then I got really hungry. But I never wanted to smoke again, much less experiment with psychedelics.
Smoking pot can be quite psychedelic, as you obviously know. And they probably aren't for everyone. I have some friends who are kind of like you with their experiences around these substances. Are you religious or spiritual? Have you tried meditation or breathe work. There are many ways to connect with our higher selves.
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I have told my experience to other people and they say things like "I wish I had an experience like yours"... I love being sober, losing track of time, being in control of my body and my thoughts terrifies me, I have managed to handle sleep paralysis, although it has been a bit difficult lately, but not being able to control my senses after smoking makes me panic, I think that has affected my experience. I am not religious or spiritual.
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I used to be very logical in my understanding of my reality. I was not spiritual in any sense of the word. I feel like facing my fears that came along with trying psychedelics did a lot to open my up spirituality. Do you have any desire for that? I know there are a lot of ways to get it.
I think I experienced sleep paralysis a couple times. It was terrifying.
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I don't feel mentally prepared to use LSD or anything like that. The only thing I would dare to try again would be weed, but in a controlled way and in the company of my husband. What is a person supposed to feel when they connect with their spirituality? What are the benefits? Or when you talk about spirituality do you mean feeling good about yourself and knowing yourself better?
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I find LSD challenging. I like the natural stuff. You will never get anything you can't handle. It may be scary but there is potential for growth when we face fear.
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You have a point, there is nothing I can control, maybe it must be a fear that I must overcome. I am calm, I am in my comfort zone being sober, using any psychedelic will make me leave that zone in a violent way.
Idk. For me, i felt very sad and isolated in my body. Believing in something better has given me more peace. But I don't think that is true for everyone. I do think for me it was about knowing myself better as well. Maybe its the same thing.
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Some people do, with meditation, yoga, religion, drugs or psychotherapy. It doesn't matter the method as long as it is for your well-being and is positive for your life.