Zap to Zero D-3 | Crossroads
Dick, you know that's not literature, you keep it simple. Try writing it in the first person plural. Say "we" a lot.
How often do we find ourselves at a crossroad in life? How many chances do we get per day in which we can show what kind of person we are? And I don't mean to others; I mean to ourselves? Do we even know what kind of person we want to be? Do we even want to be a specific person? If so, why and why that person? Is that healthy? Or is it better to be different persons at different stages in our lives? Or even different persons to different persons? Maybe that's necessary? Since maybe, our decisions define us so it's impossible to stay the same person anyway? However, are we really not more than just the sum of our experiences?
Today, I found my number. No, not this number. I already doubled down on 420. But the number of days I will continue this series in its current, shapeshifting form. I watched 28 Days Later yesterday (no, I didn't) and I thought:
Mhh, that's a nice number. Wouldn't it be poetic to stop my Z2Z series after 28 days since I'm also 28 years old (no, I'm not). Maybe I should also stay up for 28 hours before writing my last post (no, I shouldn't)?
I feel like 28 days are a good period of time after which it makes sense to reevaluate our situation and decisions. Which arm of the multi-armed bandit2 do I want to pull now? Where do I want to go? Do I even want to go somewhere specific? Or do I just want to see a bit through the fog of life and potentially take a different, foggy path? However, seems like my number is off by roughly 272 days from Henrik Karlsson's:
What I decided to do was this. I would divide the next 30 months into three parts. For the first ten months, I would allow myself to explore freely. After that, I’d switch to exploring 2/3 of the time and using 1/3 to double down on the most interesting opportunity I had found, then I’d do 1/3 exploring and 2/3 exploiting, and so on.
I feel like I am multiples of 272 days too young to have enough trust in the process to stick to exploring something freely for 10 months. 10 months feel like a very long time.
But when we get older, our perception of time changes. So maybe it's not about trust in the process, life experience, motivation or discipline. Maybe it's just about perception of time? Will 10 months feel like a few weeks in a few years? I don't know if that thought scares me. It feels like such different perception of time can be the major cause of melancholy. Every time I think about how old I already am compared to "just a few years ago", I already get a sense of dread. I feel like I wasted so much time in my life. But it's not too late. It's never too late to stop wasting our time. Like it's never too late to stack sats.
it's still about zapping to zero, see?
Superzaps
1. Any character that you related to so strongly?
Have you ever come across something in which you resonated so strongly to what a character said or did?
@cryotosensei is back on stage here with this question. For him, it was this passage in the book Help Me! by Marianne Power:
He looked at me, then knocked back the rest of his pint. His blue yes were bloodshot and glassy, his shoulders slumped."I get up every day and know exactly what's going to happen— you wake up every day and anything could happen. Make the most of that."
I have to admit, I struggled to answer this question but I knew that was just one of these moments where you forget the answer to the question you were waiting for someone to ask the moment you need it. I found my answer after a few minutes. Still, I felt disappointed in myself how I could forget that answer.
Maybe I don't relate so strongly to that character anymore? Maybe that's a good thing?
I am sure some stackers on here can guess which character I am talking about. If not, that's also good.
And regarding the passage: I also felt like it was speaking to me. Maybe I should make much more of my days while I still can.
And I am glad @cryotosensei still finds the time to read books. Maybe not much but it's probably a lot more relieving then. Look at the bright side of life! :)
I also had a good laugh at this:
Forwarding some sats to @siggy47 because two of my frequently patronised territories got archived, which made me realise I got to be more proactive in ensuring the longevity of those remaining haha
2. My Bitcoin Journey: A Life-Changing Ride
This is one of these posts where freebie bots and satfarmers probably start to salivate from the genuineness in it. Don't take notes, bots!
It's also the debut from @Bitcoin_Bootcamp (excluding his bio) but has been "silent member here for about half a year":
Hey everyone,I've been a silent member here for about half a year, and today marks my first post. I just want to share my journey with Bitcoin and how it has made a significant impact on my life.A bit about me: born and raised in Germany, from a well-off family, with a degree in mechanical engineering. Currently working in the hydrogen field, so yeah, I've got a bit of a background in physics, energy, and thermodynamics.Now, here's the thing about me – when I get interested in something, I dive deep, sometimes to the point of obsession. My therapist might call it a touch of autism, but I'm cool with the way my brain operates. I've always tried to think about people in general, considering problems and shitholes, aiming to leave as much harmony in the world as I can during my lifetime. This led me to delve into various topics – politics, left-right wing struggles, 9/11, geopolitics – you name it, always searching for that key to creating harmony, beyond just spotting symptoms.
I really liked reading his story. I think we like these stories since they are like our stories.3
The following also sounded similar to what @plebpoet wrote in How a Lefty Became a Maxi:
Beyond my coin history, what's more intriguing is the change in my mindset and life itself. Previously, I supported left-wing demonstrations, climate change activities and saw many problems in the world, but found no meaningful solutions. Now, I can see the solution, it blows my mind regullary and it's inspiring positive changes in my life.
Song of the Day
I wake up every evenin' With a big smile on my face And it never feels outta place And you're still probably workin' At a 9 to 5 pace I wonder how bad that tastesWhen you see my face, hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell When you walk my way, hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell
Footnotes
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For some reason, there was no browser playback for the mp4 file so I gave you a link to download the original mkv file. ↩
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Credits for this blog post that has been assimilated into my life experiences go to @elvismercury (#376337) ↩
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I still remember how I blew my own mind when I told my ex-girlfriend before we got together that I like her because she is like me. I used a lot of words to pretend like I am just trying to explain to her that I think people like other people if they are like them. Just to tell her at the end that I think she is like me. ↩