Guess who's back from the dead? Me.
I've had a rough last week, with the weekend being my absolute low-point in multiple ways, but I've managed to crawl back up on my feet, and am going surprisingly strong again already.
Alright, I've managed to cross paths with the "third" girl on my little list - which is an absolute banger in terms of looks - and asked her out; The answer was as expected: "I have a boyfriend".
"Okay" I said, and went back to my workout, but the way she said it was quite, well, uncomfortable: She had a totally blank / emotionless face, and answered like an absolute robot, it was so... Soulless.
I don't know, that was a weird one.
Anyways, after that, I kinda started gliding
into a negative though-spiral, maybe I was getting impatient (I'd describe me as such), and maybe I was getting a little frustrated with something, I'm still unsure what set it off, but it didn't do me good.
The weird thing, however, is that I've never had such big personal changes in such a short span! I even managed to complete my little "list" in a record-time!
Honestly, if you'd have told me a month ago that I'd have asked out 4 very pretty girls (it's three now but stay tuned) within the span of two weeks, id have laughed you out HARD- add to that that I'm in the best physical shape I've ever been!
Nevertheless, I started gliding back into old habits and patterns, but managed to climb out the hole again at the right time.
Yesterday, though, was an interesting one: I went back to the gym again, but at a later-than-usual time. People came and went, and I was doing my thing, but then this girl came in and I instantly thought: "yep, I'm gonna ask her, too".
I was eyeing her for a while, as it was very crowded and loud (that's why I usually never go that late) and kinda managed to "catch" her in the changing room as we were both done working out.
To my enormous surprise, I was way less nervous, and even a bit more playful!
I went up to her, asked her if she had a boyfriend to which she said "no", which I followed-up by asking her if she'd be interested in meeting each other sometime. She ended up going back-and forth, "yes, no, hm maybe, hm hmm" while looking awkwardly into the mirror, to the left and the right, and ended with "Hm, I don't know if I'm up for a relationship right now, sorry" to which I replied "Okay", grabbed my bag, and left. π₯²
It's the fourth "No" in a row, but the main important thing is that she's a) single, b) not entirely uninterested (I think) and c) still unsure, so there's still a chance to win her over for a date, which I plan on trying by engaging her again in a playful way, but if that delivers a second "No", then I'll leave it at that. π
Anyways, I felt very positive about me and the way it went, and I even found a β¬5,00 bill on the walkway on my way home, leaving me with the conviction that just maybe it's a little sign of the universe that things are going to take a turn for the better again!
I'm curious as to what the results of my little "campaign" on her will be, I'll keep ya updated!
- Soon-To-Be-Suave Fabs, out.