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Did you enjoy the holiday? Did it briefly interupt things, the cycle of conviction you tend to, or the setting of convenience you sleep in?
Did you think about time sliding by, chunking into years, numbers, a solid thing of memories and data, or instead-floating on a misty cloud, Remember and Forget dancing partners in your cloudy thoughts?
Did you see persons known as family embrace the cheerful holiday? Chat with you on this and that, penetrate the superficial, pardon the interruption of your timely musings. Did the reality of their life surprise you? Their own cycles neglected, their timelines entwined, numbering multitudes, indifferently to you.
Did you think of years ahead, what will take place, what may be undone? The next holiday comes, plans and place-settings gather the family once more. Time marches forward, and you are still, probably digesting Thanksgiving.
This is Beautiful. I spent Thanksgiving with some new "friends". I didn't really want to go and didn't too much enjoy myself overall. It was however a learning experience as always. The older I get, the more I feel like holidays are a scam. I want to be grateful every single day. I don't need to overeat on oversalted food to feel grateful. Every day is special and worth celebrating. And I want to celebrate by taking better care of myself. I don't think I want to be a part of any more thanksgiving gatherings. Thank you for sharing this. I really enjoy your writing and look forward to hearing more from you. šŸ’š
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11 sats \ 4 replies \ @ek 22h
do you want to share why you didn't enjoy it?
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That's a good question. It was really just fine. The people were really kind, we shared a bunch of food and conversation. I just felt very out of place. I didn't feel like I could relate at all. The friends are a couple of other off grid living folks. And while it seems like that would give us things I common, it really feel that way for me. But there was really nothing bad happening. I have been going through some really big changes in my life for many years now. Changes that have pulled me away from my old family and friends. Changes that have really isolated me all together. And I think I have a lot of work to do to open back up to people and realize I can connect without feeling seen. I am glad you asked this question because it helps me consider the fact that it was a perfectly good day. I just feel very strange around other people. And that is something for me to look at. No one is ever going to resonate with me fully so I think if I want community back in my life, I have some work to do on opening back up. Thanks for asking.
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11 sats \ 1 reply \ @ek 20h
This sounds very familiar. I asked because I wanted to confirm my guess :)
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That's good to hear. It feels really good to relate in any kind of way. And I want to appreciate it where I can find it. And maybe learn to be more adaptable.
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connect without feeling seen
That is a hard lesson for sure, I struggle there, too, but it is possible. Especially when you think of humanity as one, one big connection
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thanks much Dave!
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i will no longer celebrate saturnalia.
there is nothing holy about a holiday, because unholy people do not necessarily become holy on that particular day. gift-giving and gift-receiving cannot fix unholy people.
if good interesting people come together and i get invited, i will attend. i will happily celebrate real events of life as they come, and i am still ok with celebrating yearly birthdays. as i opt out of the cyclical annual holidays, birthdays might go as well. in my family, we already gift each other things ahead of time or after the fact.
i think that today, holidays are a distraction trap, mainly parasitized by marketing companies, and probably created by them too. before we had modern marketing, we had religious propaganda.
i am fine celebrating the end of the snow and the beginning of the sun seasons, and the checkpoints in between (the solstices and the equinoxes). however, the first days of the season no longer get enough attention from people, because they are under a psyop of other Celebrate-by-Fiat Days.
i am not jaded, this is clear reasoning in order to preserve my focus & attention.
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interesting...I think I can follow your sentiment, but I wonder if you mean to be the one who decides who is holy and who is unholy? Kinda lost me there. But I agree, acknowledging the seasons changing feels more meaningful than the hullabaloo of holidays. I see you're reasoning. Have you always felt this way?
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holy vs unholy really deserves a separate post. some synonyms are authentic vs inauthentic, good vs evil, right vs wrong.
there is a slow occult (hidden) agenda to eradicate all good from a previously holy holiday. examples: the X-mas vs Christmas; why not (+)mas if X-mas is not a proper noun at all? Easter: related to Ishtar, the pagan goddess of fertility, with bunnies and eggs being used to somehow be related to... Christ? once u see these connections, u cannot unsee the occult programming.
in case of a "holiday" - ask urself what exactly is being celebrated and why in order to determine the holiness-to-unholiness ratio. in case of a "person" - does he or she have proper moral standards? it is time to stop the gift-giving to naughty boys (&girls)
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December is the school holidays in Singapore, and Iā€™m just thrilled to have more time for myself and my family.
penetrate the superficial,
No particular need to probe beneath my facade haha
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haha I would agree, you are more likely to let it all out voluntarily, no?
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Poem in free verse. Love it.
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more poems should be free
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Haha! You sure about free verse, you're?
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50 sats \ 1 reply \ @LowK3y19 2 Dec
Was a good get together no drama which is a good thing
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same here, everyone on the up pretty much
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