Thanks for sharing. It seems like you don't need to talk to the counselor but you do need to talk to yourself and be honest about everything that is really bothering you and divide it into pieces and see where you can start. A 4-year-old son is a gift for sure, perhaps find a way to have more in common with him than just a playground? Two-man project? (well, one and a half exactly but you know what I mean). You can nicely split this into boys and girls club :-) Smaller, easier to manage. I don't know, take him to see a sunrise from the mountaintop on Saturday morning, teach him about wild animals on Sunday and take a walk in the woods with no toxic air around, teach him how to fish, fishing takes patience and kids have very little of it maybe try to integrate a life lesson into it, catching the first fish is rewarding. You will bond better with the little one so he will not be a "burden" or just another responsibility. Not everyone has a support system and even when someone does, ultimately everything depends on you. You do need a space for yourself to find your inner peace, your heart is in a good place and you will do fine. It seems you just need a little organizing which is not as easy as it seems. Baby steps, start small but you have to be honest with yourself and understand what's really bugging you. It all starts with YOU, not the therapist. One smart man once said "...You can fool the whole world down the pathway of years, And get pats on the back as you pass, But your final reward will be heartaches and tears If you've cheated the guy in the glass..." Dale Wimbrow