Not fitting in makes you question what you're not fitting into.
  • As a child athlete, I was often the youngest on my teams which made me the default scapegoat
  • My parents are addicts (mom more than dad) so society's rules were clearly negotiable. (I was also alone emotionally and intellectually for the majority of my childhood.)
  • Until age 13, we lived in Sunnyvale. My parents are blue collar and I wasn't really conscious of the tech industry, but I was probably affected by the surroundings anyway.
  • My parents went through a bankruptcy when I was ~12. My dad swore off credit for two decades and the whole thing scared me away from credit too.
  • My high school math teacher was amazing and technology forward. He encouraged us use calculators for everything and taught from experimental textbooks that presented every problem as a word problem.
I really admire your transparency and thoughtfulness
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Thanks! Honestly, I do it selfishly.
I think holding stuff in makes us rot emotionally. And I think lying does that and more by blinding us to the rot.
Transparency and lying aren’t the same thing obviously but they’re related in that opaqueness is often motivated by reserving the option to lie.
The biggest liars I know are also the least self aware and consequently the most stagnant in the areas they lie about.
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Second. :)
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Truly is such a blessing to have had teachers like the one you did, they really can change your life. They are scarcer than bitcoin
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