You ask the best questions.

Parenting for me.

I have one toddler and one baby, and boy do they suck all the time and energy out of me. I have been finding parenting extremely tough. I have no support. It’s just me and my wife looking after them, so I feel imprisoned in a cell that is admittedly my own making.

I realise that I no longer can go the things that rejuvenate me - a night out with friends, travelling or just time alone with myself. But unfortunately, I don’t enjoy parenting at all. How my toddler asks questions incessantly during dinner, how I must spend all my weekend with him at various playgrounds, how I must rock my baby girl to sleep in the wee hours of the morning. I don’t regret parenting but these days, I sigh a lot. I wish I had known just how unpalatable and unjoyful the whole business of parenting is.

I find that parenting holds me back because I wake up in the morning, nursing a slight headache rather than feeling recharged to conquer the day. I also don’t have the time to work on personal projects. Sometimes you need that few hours of white space so that you can figure things out and get into the flow and generally feel a sense of accomplishment. Parenting has robbed me of that.

Thanks for reading my rant haha