Are you asking me, specifically, why I'm not not a believer in the safety/efficacy of vaccines in general?
If so, as a starting point I'd point you to the recent interview that Aaron Siri gave on the Dark Horse podcast (with Brett Weinstein). The interview was fascinating. It's not where I started, but it's a good intro and it's very recent.
Are you asking me, specifically, why I'm not not a believer in the safety/efficacy of vaccines in general?
If so, as a starting point I'd point you to the recent interview that Aaron Siri gave on the Dark Horse podcast (with Brett Weinstein). The interview was fascinating. It's not where I started, but it's a good intro and it's very recent.
https://open.spotify.com/episode/0iNJnENTx55PYnrroJxHOj.