I'm struggling with fulfilling my Maslow's hierarchy of needs Level 2 (Safety.) Specifically getting my financial needs met.

I'm living with parents, self-employed, working long hours every day, and after business expenses my personal income is $0. I've got credit card debt, a negative net worth, and it's been like this for 5+ years.

Every other day I'm ready to throw in the towel and find a "real job", but I can't give up. I'm all-in pursuing my dream of software development or dying trying.

Lately I'm struggling with working too much, and getting so stressed that my body shits out food without digesting it. I'm struggling with staying warm during my morning bicycle rides. Winter is just getting started.

Fuck Spokane winters. I ride every day if able, it's the only thing keeping me sane. Basically any day that's dry and warmer than 32 degrees F, I'm out cycling. I ride before the morning traffic rush starts, so this time of year that means I ride in complete darkness.

Once it freezes and snows, I'm going to lose my shit. It happens every winter, going from cycling 5 days a week to weeks without, I go to a bad place. I'm trying really hard to not dump the emotional details, but let's just say I have wanted to get myself closer to the equator for years.