Divine consciousness thrust into an experiment with others where we're all shoved into a monkey meat suit that drives us insane just to see how we handle it.
Raised amid wealth's comforts yet plagued by inner awkwardness and decades of aimless drift, arrived at a poised maturity, clear eyed about my direction and desires.
Files that appear in lost+found are typically files that were already unlinked (i.e. their name had been erased) but still opened by some process (so the data wasn't erased yet) when the system halted suddenly (kernel panic or power failure). If that's all that happened, these files were slated for deletion anyway, you don't need to care about them.
i nearly died while being born and then from childhood injectables, nearly drowned in the sea, almost lost my eyesight, almost free-fell to the death rock-climbing, found bitcoin, and today i am fighting the parasites;
After peaking at sixteen by rediscovering some absurdly profound intuitive overinterpretation1 of the most abstruse theoretical principle2 while feeling sorry for myself after sleeping through my morning alarm enough times to not even bother showing up for AP Physics3, I began deliberately cultivating the habit of wasting neither energy on perfecting skills beyond practicality, nor resources on causes beyond salvation.
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the best intuitive description of anything close to it was published about a decade before my gloomy revelations, in Ted Chiang's infamous Story of Your Life↩
there's aready the predictably encyclopedic article about the practical mathematical technique for attacking the various forms this principle takes in different physical theories, although it doesn't touch upon any of the metaphysics that crystallise the intuition. ↩
I ended up dropping the course, probably for the best; studying physics in the university, after semesters of calculus, also at the university, was still eventually possible. ↩
na i meant it as being funny, in the movie royal wanted to fix his wrongs at the end of his life and for the most part he did, but sometimes just being yourself is all that people around you really want, thats why his grave says that, its hilarious and exactly something royal would do, and his family & friends know that
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