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not gonna lie, this is a Universe given saying that has recently come through to me in recent days.

but realizing this, it has been with me the past six months. over time, i've become more and more quiet with sharing the happenings in my life because i would prefer that my own achievements be shown, and not told. it annoys the shit out of the people i know, but i am slowly coming to terms with my life being my own. 

so, if you're in a rut, or you feel like your life is spiraling and you want to give up, or you need a pick me up to get real with shit, this post is absolutely, for you. 

1. let them. 

this is a famous saying by the *incredible* mel robbins. in short, it means, let everyone say whatever it is they want to say, and let everyone do whatever it is they want to do, and go about however they choose to live their lives. 

at the end of the day, you cannot control people ever, and the only reason they will change is if they want to. 

so guess what? this is where you get to actually give a shit about yourself for once. 

who cares if they talk down on you? 

who cares if they don't want to see things the way you do? 

who cares if your goals and aspirations don't live up to everyone else's expectations. 

you make your reality, regardless of what anyone says or thinks. 

2. silence is your best friend. 

stop. the. fucking. over. sharing. 

stop. the. fucking. talking. 

stop. the. gloating. and. bragging. 

because let me tell you, once you run your mouth about whatever it is you're doing, people want to see you fail, and those said goals and things become expectations. now there's pressure, and no longer enjoyment of the process. those who want to see you fail enjoy it when you don't make it because deep down they don't go out of their way to even try to get those things or achievements themselves. it's a projection, and you don't need that energy while you're progressing to come your way. 

so, if you're trying to build a business, buying a house, developing a skill, traveling the world for the first time, trying something daring and challenging that is out of the box, etc.

just shut your damn mouth. that way you can brag all about how awesome it was later. 

3. your present state of mind is all that matters. 

i  have said this countless times. 

the past and the future do not exist. those versions of you don't exist, so why are you hanging onto them? you can only take true responsibility for your life if you focus on what is going on now. 

in my own instances, i can only see so far ahead for what i have today. i gave myself grace in book writing, took sometime to care for myself by hitting the gym, and will jump on the productive train sometime in the later hours of the night because my brain works best that way. 

small things add up, and be it if its 1 word i do today, or 1,000, it's still a progression toward something great. 

in short, being intentional with your life and how you decide to go about it is always a good thing. taking responsibility privately is a very kind, calm, and collected way of saying, *fuck you* to everyone. 

thus, make life like a movie when things become weird, difficult, or overbearingly annoying. you can only know how it turns out when you watch, and not talk.

sit back, shut up, and let things unfold like a movie:

i'm in the third draft of my book:

i don't think i'll disclose any big details at this time, but it's a YA coming of age novel! 

touches on the themes of diaspora, identity and garnering agency, what i want vs. what everyone expects of me, and the changing dynamics of romantic, familial, and friend relationships.

hope this helps :)

it's been a good while since i've last posted anything here on stacker news, and my reasons for going dark are now here. 

here are some fun things i've been doing as of late: 

1. i am in the third draft of my book. 

they always say your first 1-2 drafts are the brain dump of your story, and it was. 

to the fullest actually. 

the first one was more of the outlining and chapter by chapter breakdown. 

i consider this a first draft because it was a full bullet by bullet breakdown of everything i wanted to happen throughout the plot, for the characters, and for the worldbuilding. 

a messy disaster of course, but something to work with was finally in full. on paper. 

the second one? the first half of the book was completely written out. 

again, another disaster but at least the characters were actually doing something. but hey, it's on paper and had a structure to it. 

the third one? 

really liking how it's coming together. the characters aren't annoying me anymore, the worldbuilding feels cinematic, and third person is easier than first. i have also come to realize writing scenes that intuitively come to me and then stitching the plot together is helping the writing move along faster, is alot more fun, and neater to do. 

2. i have read alot of books. alot. 

my reviews need to be written still, but here are some titles i think you all would find interest in! 

Alchemised by SenLinYu

listen, i hardly ever read anything fan fiction related (this used to be an HP one), but this was a masterpiece. if any of you like morally grey characters, necromancy and alchemy, the spoils of a war and afterward, and in depth magic and worldbuilding, this is for you. 

would give this 100 stars. 

I Could Give You The Moon by Ann Liang ( to be released in April of 2026, was gifted an early e-copy by the publisher). 

So this is actually a follow up to Ann Liang's other book, If You Could See The Sun. I didn't read the first one since she has explicitly stated you don't need to read the first one in order to read this one. This is a Speculative Romance YA for readers or audiences who like international schools, characters with well thought out backgrounds and motives, and a fun plot to follow. 

4.5 // 5 

Red City by Marie Lu (released today, October 14th, 2025) 

(was gifted an early e-copy by the publisher and by Marie Lu at SDCC) 

a contemporary fantasy book set in fictional los angeles with underground alchemy guilds that basically rule the world. the main character is awesome, and so are the side characters. it took a bit to get me into this book,   about 35% of the way through, but what did it for me was the unique magic system and the take no bullshit characters which developed nicely. 

think Full Metal Alchemist meets The GodFather. 



5 // 5 

current reads: 

The Invisible Life of Addie Larue by V.E. Schwab 

I about 10% of the way into this, and I already know this is going to make me cry rivers by the end. imagine having to meet people over the span of three centuries because you made an immortal deal with the devil only for them to forget you every time you meet them. 

sad, and depressing, but makes for a great story. 



so, yeah. that's life as of late. 


on top of being recently engaged and trying to plan a wedding for the next year and a half. 


i'm not exactly sure how often i'll be writing here again. this might be my only post for now, or i might be posting again sooner rather than later. life has been a rollercoaster, even more so with all the happenings as of late. 

hope all of you stackers are doing well though! 

let me know in the comments what you've been up to. would love to hear it. :) 

take care, 

- j 


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SimpleStacker

this is awesome! thanks for the mention. :)

alter_native

follow my travel diaries throughout japan! 
recent posts as of late: 
https://stacker.news/items/938952/r/deluluwithjuju_

i recently got back from osaka, and it was a blast! this time, it was to visit some of my friend back from my hometown. it still remains my favorite area of japan, and i did alot of things with them, and on my own. 

**day 7:** 

my main place of stay is in nagoya, and after i finished up my volunteer hours, i got on the next bullet train to osaka and made my way to my friend's place by 5pm. 

i will be honest, i often stay at hostels when i'm traveling alone. the upside to this trip: it was a private room! the downside: the cleanliness was not the best, and the inconvenience of a women's toilet being on the other floors. 

but hey, can't be free if they invited you, am i right? i'm grateful nonetheless for letting me come out to join them! 

that evening, we went to eat tsukemen (dipping ramen) and it was super delicious! after that, we walked around dotonbori for a bit, then completely crashed out from a long day. 

**day 8:** 

we went to nara park in the morning, and saw all the deer and cherry blossoms in bloom everywhere. it was great getting to see the little guys searching for deer cookies from tourists, and every now and then, tourists getting bit in the butt for more. 

we went to go eat at a place called torikizoku, where everything (including drinks) was around 370 ($2.50 USD) per plate. It was awesome, and the pickled cucumbers were phenomenal. 

in the evening, i decided to go solo and head to a ball called fireball near dotonbori to meet other solo travelers. an interesting bunch of people i must say, but the mango beer (manjo juice and whatever beer of your choosing) was amazing and is something i never knew i needed in my life until now. 

**day 9:** 

this day was more or less a blur of relaxing at the hostel. i walked to the local park known for their rose bushes and decided to read for a few hours as the sun went down. the evening was spent drinking at another nearby park at like 1:30 in the morning under more cherry blossom trees. 

**day 10:** 

this day consisted of me mostly lounging around the hostel until about 2pm. i got some discounted grocery store food for breakfast for like, $5, then made my way to tenjinbashisuji street (the longest shopping street in japan), and a small stroll at tennoji park to see the cherry blossom pedals falling like pink snow. i also went to a local bakery, and swallowed those crossiants so fast. 

then, it started to rain, and on the way back to the hostel, i got caught up in a wind tunnel that pushed the rain my way, getting my pants absolutely soaked from the knee down. i spent the evening drying my pants in the girls bathroom with a hair dryer (because i don't need to pay any unecessary money for the dryer okay i'm a girl on a budget), and had dinner in the hostel's downstairs cafe. we had yakisoba, takoyaki, and karaage. also amazing, and at a great price! 

the rain was a bit of a deal breaker for going back to nagoya that night because i was not about to walk in the rain to the train station for fifteen minutes, so i decided to crash one more night since my friends were going to kyoto in the morning anyways. 

but yeah. osaka was really great, and i love how it's always a different experience when visiting but always so memorable. 

now back to the regularly scheduled agenda before i go on another small travel adventure throughout this wonderful country! 

the solo japan travel diaries - days 7 through 10: a trip to osaka

well, here i am. back in japan a year later. things are different this time around with new challenges and hurdles, but it feels much less scary and daunting than before. 

**if you don't know me, let me re-introduce myself.**

**hi! it's been a while since i last posted anything.**

**i'm juju. i used to be known as @speakingyourtruth here on stacker news. long story short: i lived in japan for a short time in 2024 with the goal of being here for a year, but sadly didn't work out in the way i hoped. but it didn't stop me from coming here again as you can see! you'll see i've shifted my nym to better reflect who i am and my purpose for being here. i hope my unfiltered and unapologetic advice will help you live the life you've always wanted to, even if you have to be utterly delusional when working towards it in whatever ways that might be. you'll also get small glimpses into what i'm doing here and there with some lifestyle posts, just like this one!**

now that i've been out here for three weeks, i thought it would be alot of fun to start documenting my daily doings of travel. but to catch you all up, i will be putting summaries of what we, and i've been doing below! 

**week 1: tokyo and okinawa**

ah yes, all the anticipation of waiting for almost 10 months of going back to japan has finally made it our way. for the first two weeks, i wasn't on my own, but spent some wonderful quality time with my love! our first stop was tokyo for the next three days. to have a red eye flight for ten hours only to arrive two days later in the early bird morning is a time trip on your mind and your body. but it's nothing that some sun, fresh air at the park, and a small trip to 7/11 can't fix. 

the main highlight was tokyo disneyland, but meeting up with friends from both home and japan was a really nice treat too. and the way i felt my pants almost unbutton from the amount of food we were eating: it's like the walking 20k steps couldn't have burned it all off. (fun fact: _kanzashi_ are my new favorite hair accessory and no one can change my mind).

then, we caught our flight to okinawa! five days of island paradise, amazing vibes, and atmosphere. highlights consisted of: 

1. okinawan food: _chanpuru_ being my favorite food out here hands down. it reminds me so much of one of my favorite filipino dishes, just stir fried. taco rice is also up there as a favorite and so is okinawan style onigiri.

2. the beach still being my favorite place ever. the water is all sorts of blues which was really beautiful to see. 

3. american village: the name speaks for itself. a blend of american and japanese culture with many shops pertaining to american style clothes, accessories, food, and trends. mostly a highlight because we got to actually swim at the beach this day, and the water felt amazing along with the great weather we had. extra windy, but still warm enough! 

4. senaga island: hermit crabs were hiding everywhere and spent about forty five minutes looking around for them in the sand. 

5. the laidbackness: despite us running around each day (which pretty much can't be helped at all in japan since you pretty much want to see and do every single thing) the laidback vibes in comparison to the main part of japan was very liberating. locals seemed to be living on their own time versus everyone else, and didn't seem miserable or lifeless for a change. 

other notes: 
- everyone buys Orion shirts (the beer in Okinawa) which is cute. 
- and wears flowers in their hair, which is also very cute. 
- cats are everywhere. 
- i want _shisa_ statues in my house. 

those five days flew so very fast, and i can't wait to be back here again very soon one day. 

**week 2: osaka, kobe, kyoto, and moving onto nagoya** 

onto my favorite region of japan where half and full day trips are taken, the best food ever (in my humble and honest opinion) is located at, and the plethors of things to do never ends. 

this was also more or less a resting time for both of us, and more went with the flow of things. one of the big highlights was making a matching ringset together. it was awesome seeing the fruits of our labor come to life, and to have a memorable keepsake of our time out here with us all the time. 

 some time was spent in kobe, where i ate like the best mazesoba ever. and another day was spent roaming around kyoto with the cherry blossoms blooming. nishiki market and maruyama park are also great and wonderful places to stroll in, along with gion. 

shortly after kyoto, we packed our things, and took the bullet train to nagoya. 

the last two days together were spent going around nagoya castle taking in the cherry blossom bloom, osu shopping street, and _kitsune kishimen_ at this very small noodle shop in sakae. _oden_ is also great when its freezing af outside. 

**week 3: nagoya - first week working in a guesthouse** 

april 1st: a bad joke of a day if you get what i mean. i cried a whole lot while eating some yummy bakery items at nagoya station with my love until he had to take the next train back to tokyo for his flight home. 

ever since then, i have been left to fend for myself for the next 60 days (now 53 the day i'm writing this). i took on some volunteer guesthouse work, and so far, it's been a whole learning experience of what it's like to run one alongside the attached cafe on the bottom floor. it's been really great, and everyone is very kind and welcoming. the free lunch and dinner goes a longggg way too, and its nice that nagoya is city on the bigger side with more than enough things to do, but not toursity where it feels suffocating. 

the results so far: 

- i have found myself slightly broke. so attempting to stay frugal, but stay fun and upbeat at the same time. 
- the emotions are up and down just like last time, but at least there isn't severe mental breakdowns or impending senses of doom. 
- realizing love, support, guidance, and abundance is everywhere and accessible when i need it.
- my hiragana reading is pretty great, and my katakana is sort of getting better thankfully. comprehending is pretty easy, but my speaking japanese is like a 3 out of 10 which is honestly higher than i would've expected for myself. 
- writing, grounding barefoot, and talking to my love keeps me sane. without them, i have no idea what i would.

i hope you'll stay along with me as i document my time out here. 

who knows? maybe btc will continue to go up, and i can hop over to other countries if i can. 

we shall see what happens next.



the japan travel diaries: weeks 1 through 3.

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sometimes, when life feels hard, all you need to do is step back and look at what’s right in front of you. 

you will often see how beautiful life is when you choose to see it that way. 

i hope this post finds you in the idea that it helps push you wherever you need to be today, and that there is always something good to look forward to no matter what hurdles or challenges you might face. ❤️

present living is an understatement:

hi friends, 

alot of change has been going on in my life as of late, and i’ve done things a little differently here on SN. so let me reintroduce myself: 

hello! this is juju, rather, deluluwithjuju! you might’ve known me as theaphantasicreader or speakingyourtruth in the past, but i’ve decided to embark on this change because there’s alot of movement happening in my life! 

1. i decided to change my nym because i want this space to become somewhere where i can bring truth seeking / realization into stacker’s lives. in a most passionate, zero bullshit, ranty way possible. you’ll find me writing a whole lot of posts about self motivation and self growth so in some way, i can help you find and discover a better version of yourself. here are my first two articles about it:

https://stacker.news/items/900393/r/deluluwithjuju_

https://stacker.news/items/900522/r/deluluwithjuju_

2. of course i will still be writing here on the booksandarticles category! you know me. books and reading are my happy place, and if you ever need a break from my wild and blunt writing that is sure to come your way, meet me here and we can talk about what i’m reading currently! 

3. health: in all this self discovery and philosophic learning about life, health is something that comes first no matter what. bringing focus to this one thing has really helped me cultivate a better version of me, where everything else i desire will eventually come into place. i’ve been doing really well so far here with the help of my wonderful partner, and his teachings in this area too! 

as for quotes (bookish and nonbookish), here are some that have helped me continuously move forward in the past couple of months and into 2025: 

“it’s time to get real about life, and figure out who you really are.” - eternal sunshine interlude, by ariana grande 

“ You change your life when you start doing the truly scary thing, which is showing up exactly as you are. Most of the problems that exist in our lives are distractions from the real problem, which is that we are not comfortable in the present moment, as we are, here and now. So we must heal that first. We must address that initially. Because everything else builds from it. We must be brave and confront our discomfort, sit with it even if it churns our stomachs and pinches our faces and makes us certain we will never find a way out.” - the mountain is you by brianna wiest. 

“you have to believe in yourself because there is only one you.” - superbowl interview; kendrick lamar 

“you know what the beautiful thing about rock bottom is? you have nothing left to lose.” -thewizardliz 

thanks for reading, and i hope you will stick around! take care, be well, and always be you 🫶

life updates, and quotes that have changed the way i think:

if you stumbled on this post, it was either because you really needed it, or need a little bit of a wake up call from whatever rutt you’re in. 

or for some reason, you feel like the world is falling apart on you.

today is the day you stop blaming the world for the situation you’re in. no one is saving you. you want your life to change? then quit being a sob story and do something about it. 

enjoy these vids from some of my favorite youtubers on self realization, self help, and motivation. 

https://youtu.be/Lk6AkrT5g5w

https://youtu.be/ZAwGMC0UPgU

https://youtu.be/9nt6FBWi2Sg

https://youtu.be/_FTGZ5V4AWY








videos to help get your head out of your ass: part 1

everything you could ever want or are looking for is right in front of you. if you don't believe me, then there is a 99.99% chance you are in the way of yourself. 

let me explain: 

**1. Life is an RPG.**

So, growing up, Pokemon has always been one of my favorite games. Let me tell you when I say I was ADDICTED to my DS, I would hide under my blankets when my parents would walk by my bedroom making sure I wasn't playing into the wee hours of the night. 

if anyone knows where I'm getting with this, this is how the game is played: 

1. you choose a character to play. 
2. shortly after that, a pokemon to start with (water, fire, or grass type). 
3. you meet the Professor and they give you what you need to start, and from there, you're sent on your merry way to explore the world, level up, and eventually become the pokemon league champion. 

so it raises this question: what in the fuck is preventing us (the humans) from doing the exact same thing?

you can put your ass in a video game and play for hours on end becoming the best. okay, so what's the problem doing it in real life?

looking back on this game from my chidhood, it's a life lesson in the fact you literally have to continously: 

**discover yourself** (exploring in the game, training pokemon, and collecting cool things to help you along the way), 

**make mistakes even when you hate it** (lose battles to all sorts of pokemon, pokemon trainers and gym leaders - a real hit to the ego when this happens tbh because i would just turn off my DS if i was pissed.), 

and **grow from those mistakes in order to keep on going to be the best version of yourself you can be** (league champion). 

trust me, you are in SO much more control than you think. and as long as you have those goals in mind (expectations of how they might turn out aside.), you will get there. 

**2. EVERYTHING starts in your mind.**

During my reread of The Untethered Soul by Michael Singer, the first two chapters go on to talk about how your mind is the translator of the world around you, and will look for ANYTHING to deter you away from something new. 

but why? 

because the unfamiliar is scary. that inner part of yourself is purely acting on the instinct that new things are bad. 

the quickest way to shut this thing up is like this: let it talk. 

no seriously. 

the internal monologue in your head is essentially another side of yourself that does everything in its power to always protect you, and keep you in the areas of comfort. the beautiful thing about this is thoughts always come and go, and when you let them flow, they will soon be out of your way. 

you can only build up to being good at something, or familiar with new things if you put yourself right in front of them. 

for instance, going to the gym, or learning a new skill. 

of course you're gonna suck at it. but if you put yourself in those shoes consistently, NO MATTER HOW SMALL, it will feel less and less scary every time. 

hell, something as small as walking into the gym ready to go and just looking at the equipment for 10 minutes and leaving is already a start. it's the same with learning to write a book (me, lmfao.) even if it's something like piping up the courage to open my laptop even if my mind isn't in its writing state, to writing 1 word a day to 1,000 words a day. 

in these scenarios, at least you're doing something instead of thinking about it. because at the end of the day, **thinking is not doing**. when you're stuck in your head deciding, you can't take action.

it's a waste of time, so you might as well say yes to the small efforts right then and there than to say later. 

because later eventually becomes never.  

**3. Letting Go.** 

letting go is a VERY underrated concept. it's because most of the time, we as humans are always expecting something to happen out of necessity, or because we are desperate for it. be it money, career, relationships,

just stop with that shit. please.

you have to believe that everything you want in life is already in your life. you have to believe that there is no way you're not getting the things you have always deserved. 

get clear with what you want. 

one of the most POWERFUL things you could ever do is say AND write your goals in the past tense. this writes everything you could ever want into your timeline of life. you have written your future into the past, so there's no way you can't get it because it has already been done. for example: 

"i could afford whatever i wanted." 
"i traveled to wherever i wanted to."
"i've become successful in my dream career, and i met my financial success because of it."

when you constantly say and read them everyday, you will start to believe it is yours. put a date on them so it gives you a designated time it appears in your life. 

the key takeaway: **you NEED to detach from how your goals happen.** your goals have already been achieved, so you shouldn't feel this need to chase them, worry about them, or that they are out of reach. 

instead, bring your focus here: 

- **gratitude**: thank God, the Universe, or whatever beings out there for whatever it is you already have. 
- **do the work**: consistency brings the abundance in. think about the steps you need to take part in to get to your goals. a book isn't going to magically write itself. your dream body doesn't come out of nowhere or overnight. your career in tech isn't going to be offered to you if you didn't bother to study or create SOMETHING in the field. no matter how big or small the steps are, keep in mind you are moving forward and you're constantly getting closer to what it is that is in your timeline. 

so please, get the F out of your own way because most of the time, you are blocking out the potential you've always had. all the answers you're looking for are right in front of you. 


get the F out of your own way.

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happy 2025 bookish people of stacker news! i hope all of you have been well in your first 12-13 days of the year. 

as you well know, writing has been playing a big role in my life as of late. with a goal in mind to finish the first draft in march, here are some books i want to read and reread throughout the time in between for inspiration and entertainment. 

i want to dive more into dystopian literary fiction this year, which is why the poppy war and manacled made it onto the stack. manacled is HP fanfic, but the author is coming out with the official published version in an original world and characters with relatively the same plot in the fall (and probably my most anticipated read of the year) which i am super excited about. 

fantasy is always dear to me so had to throw in those to read again too. :) 

do any of you have any fun and new reads you’re hoping to get to this year? let me know down below! 

happy 2025: rereads, new reads, and nostalgic reads.

three things: 

**1. i am stopping over in japan first:** 

because why not? the spring time is always the best time right next to fall. first to spend some good quality time  with my love before i don't see him for about 2-3 months. 

and of course, to go back and see my friends, and sightsee at places i didn'y yet!

**2. my trip has extended from 17 to 80 days.**

some work exchanges responded to me! i get free accomodation and food which is freaking awesome. super excited for this, and to "work" in japan at a different angle. 

**3. mindful travel or, spontaneous travel?**

so... outside of japan, do i mindfully plan where to go next, or think about it while i'm still in japan? i hear vietnam is awesome. same for what i heard about indonesia, taiwan, singapore, and south korea. 

or maybe i'll go to the homeland (philippines) or to indonesia. i heard both are beautiful still in june. 

i hope to find work exchanges out here too to extend my cultural experiences and time out there! 

other than that, the planning stages have been alot of fun! i guess the only thing that is going through my mind at the moment is the fact thart i will have very dramatic clothing changes within a six month timeframe. 

if any of you have suggestions on countries within southeast asia, please let me know! would love to hear them. :) 



backpacking the world: planning.

**so, i find that the Universe talks to me sometimes. here are the things that come through every now and then. enjoy! <3**

take action toward the life you want now, or forever hold your peace on what could've been instead of what was. 

you learn nothing from comfort and complacency. 
you learn everything from discomfort and adversity. 

you become limitless when you finally begin to realize you are good enough for yourself and need no one else to validate that. 

thoughts on my mind 1

backpacking the world.

I plan to go back during my time traveling again! This time I will be in a more cultural oriented exchange and I hope this will open my eyes even moreso! 

BTC Cures the Cancer of Social Media

Shugard

i feel like the only decent fiat social media platform that's left is Threads. no dumb ads, very little political propoganda, and the algorithm is actually tailored to your interests. other than that, everything else is kind of poop. 

that's it. that's the endeavor i'm set on taking on very soon. 

it's been six and a half months since i've been home from japan. and even though life has continued to move forward, i have gone into sync of this continuous wavelength of sameness. other than writing my book's first draft (which i am currently 106 pages into), everything feels bland. 

it's the same town. with the same places to eat, places to go to, and places to hang out. 

the same people, with the same conversations, drama, and complaints. 

the same vibes and attitude toward how life deep down kinda sucks for them and how "nothing" can be done about it. 

i love home with all my heart, but it's draining to be surrounded by people and things that have never experienced big monumental change. 

sometimes, there's something within you that just cracks.

sometimes, you just need to say fuck it, and you decide to take the leap you've always wanted to take. 

and amongst all of it, have the belief and faith everything will continue to fall into place from there.

well that moment is here again. at the same time it was in 2023 when i signed my paperwork to work in japan.

is *this* what it means to have a passion // purpose in life? a goal that burns within you so much you want nothing more to achieve it beyond anything else? 

because there's nothing more i want than to do this right now. 

i hope to write out how my travels and book writing are going more often here now that i have more time. 

for around five months, it will just be a backpack and myself. wish me luck! <3 

- your favorite booksta.... traveler, stacker, writer, authoring person....? 

(sats for support are so greatly appreciated on this next journey if you have any to spare. thanks so kindly in advance during this crazy time in life!)

when one door closes, another one opens:

Likely will split time between both of them ! 

there's something special with just learning to detach and let the universe take care of the rest. 

two occurrences happened to me this week. 

this past weekend, i was recently let go from a seasonal job i had during the summer; for reasons i still don't quite understand given that the winter holidays are around the corner (which i was thinking they were gonna keep me at least until the end of the year). 

but anyways, i went to sign off on the paperwork confirming my final separation and carried on the with the rest of my day. 

in between all that time of me working up until my recent termination, i've **never** for one second, have let go of the idea of going back to japan and traveling around asia in 2025. for the past 5 months, i've let the thought stay. 

THE VERY NEXT MORNING after signing off on my paperwork, i got a reply from a hostel i hoped to work at in kansai. i also got another reply back from another hostel just this morning in aichi. mind you, i expected no one to reply. 

if this isn't a sign of the universe working in your favor, i have no idea what is. 

**here are some of the things that i believe got me to the answers i sought:**

1. detachment: when you know that you can live just fine without your desires, and remain grateful for everything you already possess in your life, you've shown the universe you are worthy to receive more. 


2. no expectations: never expect anything to come your way in the way you think. what you want will come out of nowhere and at the most unexpected time.


3. visualize, make your wants clear, and be open: i always kept my vision clear by means of taking action, visualizing where i'm at (for instance, japan, and other countries in asia, financial abundance, my highest self, etc.), journaling every single night, and by stating intentions in the past tense. 

when you speak about things you've already done, your mind is at ease. you have shown you're no longer desperate for your wants, and that abundance is something you've attracted versus chased.

if you let doors close, other ones will open if you allow them to. accept the signs as they come. 

it's only up to you after that to say yes, or never. 

so, how do you all not die if you have cramps? 

my experiences only last about a day to a day and a half. but, i just want to like not exist. 

how do you go about your days managing it so it's less like hell on earth and you can somewhat function? 

would much prefer holistic methods over using OTC meds. 

thanks kindly in advance.

- your sort of alive, kind of functioning...?? favorite book writer and talker <3

a question for ladies:

Lord of the Rings fans? Anyone?

Satosora

10000% agree. I absolutely love his character so much and he like most characters only ever try to do whatever they feel is best. 

our mind is an interesting and intricate thing we possess. and the smallest shifts lead to some of the greatest outcomes we would’ve never expected in life. 

so much so down to the very words we use in our daily lives. 

has there ever been any moments where you started a thought, question, or sentence, with the word, “if”?

for example: 

what if if i did this…? 
if i did that…. ?
if i was successful …. 
if i could’ve done things differently … 

in this context, it almost makes your thought process sound… empty feeling, and almost desperate. your mind is automatically in this mode of not having those things you want. 

shifting the “if” to a “when” is a much more powerful way of looking at your life.

when i do / did this… 
when i do / did that… 
when i am / was successful…
when i do / did things differently… 

there is not really a sense of doubt that trails in these thoughts. it puts your mind in a place of abundance because you already have, or are acting as if you already have those things.

our minds do not understand the difference between what is real and what is not, and it is the stories we tell ourselves everyday that which create our reality. 

“if” comes from a place of scarcity. you let your mind know that you are not deserving. you remain stuck in a state of thinking about something, rather than actually doing it. 

“when” promotes abundance because it is something you have actively, or are actively, taking part in achieving. you have told your mind this is something you are doing, and it knows this. 

so, why dwell and wonder on the if’s, when you could always look forward to so much more? 

