It's a good question. The macro is def an exacerbating part of it. When the world was less heightened it felt different, which was surely partly the world, and surely partly me having taken fewer arrows, thus having more capacity to absorb them. I remember the delicious feeling of having found my tribe and connecting across geography.

But the payload of what you got when you stared at your computer included fewer things, then. There was less to come to terms with, or be buffeted by, which seems to be important (#988236 -- would be interested to know if you recognize any of yourself in this).

Now I seem to need shields for things it's hard to describe exactly, and hard to describe the design of the shields sufficient to the job.