Indeed. Is a harsh struggle. I was on the irresponsible side. I lost all my BTC because I did not put my keys in safe place. I hated BTC. Then I went back to it just to lose everything to gamble. Now I am back and responsible. BTC seems to be the future and I just stake. I also began staking stocks and opened a savings account. BTC made me financially responsible after showing me the irresponsible part I was embracing without questions.