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32 sats \ 7 replies \ @Aardvark 8 Jan \ on: Do you ever fall into the trap of giving yourself negative labels? FiresidePhilosophy
Breaking negative self feedback is extremely hard. I have spent the last 5 years working on it, but it's a battle. I never lifted weights because I thought that I couldn't be strong even if I tried. It wasn't until I was 38 until the first time I started going to the gym.
That was just about 5 years ago, I went from not being able to do a single pushup ro bench pressing 300lbs, and I still feel like im weak.
I also weighed 288lbs when I was 38. Over the course of 11 months I dropped down to 181, and I remember being devastated because after all that work, I felt like I still looked like shit. It's taken a lot of work since then to start liking myself and my appearance, but I'm definitely in a better place than I used to be.
It's hard putting an end to life long negative thoughts, but it's possible, you just have to work at it. I still feel like the fat kid, often, but it's a lot less these days.
that's great weight loss and some good numbers man. I will say though, just being in the gym is a positive start.
although when lifting weights, it's also easy to be self-critical and always feel small or not strong enough, bigorexia is a thing, as are the dreaded comparisons.
I've always been involved with gyms or marital arts, more gym, but even now, I'll see some thing about a jacked 17-year-old who is on all the sarms, and think ' fuck, lifting my whole life and this kid is already 1000 times better.'
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Tell me about it. Funny story, for s while I was considering taking steroids. I always like learning about things, so I did a pretty deep dive and decided that the health risks just weren't worth it, especially at my age.
The interesting thing, though, is while looking into steroids, I found out that people buy them online with bitcoin.
That is what spurred me to start looking into bitcoin, and now here i am.
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Goes to show how everything happens for a reason xP
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every cloud has a silver (or orange) lining lol
we've all contemplated juice at some point, myself included, ten years ago there just wasn't much info on the side-effects or point since I'm not an athlete, whereas now we have a ton of good info. anabolic doc is a good one, especially for older lifters
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