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When I was a child, I had these out of body experiences where I could ‘get inside my head’ and force it to think “I am something”. I kept repeating that to myself till I saw me as a third person. In other words, I was able to generate a certain level of consciousness that made me have an out of body experience. It’s very hard to explain but it was scary… I had these experiences ages 6 through 14, may be longer, but it was never possible to ‘hold on to the moment’. Like I said, it was frightening to be there.
As I grew older, it became more and more difficult to replicate those moments and one day they became a distant memory. I could no longer get into that space of time…
Now, I am by no means a lunatic or a day-dreamer; I have never done drugs or had any kind of hallucinations. I have a very functional brain that allows me a certain level of intelligence that I am proud of. Overtime, I have also learnt to question God or anything that logic cannot explain.
The one question that still remains with me is, ‘who am I?’. What were those moments I experienced as a child. What is the ‘sense of being’, this consciousness, and ‘what is the ultimate purpose of life?’. Why are we here…
These questions are of vital importance for me. I believe the questioning to your inner self leads you to the path of spirituality. What about you? Do you also get such rumbling of thoughts sometimes for a particular question. Did you ever search for the answers? Why not share them here...
what 3 things do i need to do right now to make 20m
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Once you got the 20m you would still want more. There would just be another question after.
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We should also have a territory like ~materialism or ~syntheticworld
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I have a similar story about having out of body experiences when I was young. Although very different also. Then I "grew up" and left that all behind. Although I felt in touch with it again here and there over the years. I would have these moments that I thought were flashbacks to another experience, or panic attacks, or tiny seizures. I don't now what they were but they came and went and some how felt connected to my childhood connection to a higher self. About 7 or 8 years go I felt pulled to my spirituality again and went on a new path. Mine included a lot of shamanistic type medicine work. Sitting with plants that others would refer to as psychedelics but I see them as healing allies. All that is to say that I think when we get too identifies with our logical mind we lose our connection to spirit. And I have been regaining that connection and embracing it as of late. For me, this is how we answer the real questions about existence. It's not a logical answer. It is something we can feel only for ourselves. It is our connection to our higher selves, a connection to "god".Obviously I am paraphrasing this whole story. But I really appreciate your post. I love to see this type of content here. I think it is important to ask questions that allow us to understand ourselves better.
'Know thyself' is real wisdom
Thanks for the post. 💚
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This is what you need to recite every now and then.
Know then thyself, presume not God to scan; The proper study of mankind is Man. Placed on this isthmus of a middle state, A being darkly wise and rudely great: With too much knowledge for the Sceptic side, With too much weakness for the Stoic's pride, He hangs between; in doubt to act or rest, In doubt to deem himself a God or Beast, In doubt his mind or body to prefer; Born but to die, and reasoning but to err; Alike in ignorance, his reason such Whether he thinks too little or too much: Chaos of thought and passion, all confused; Still by himself abused, or disabused; Created half to rise and half to fall; Great lord of all things, yet a prey to all; Sole judge of truth, in endless error hurled: The glory, jest, and riddle of the world!
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What is that from?
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I like it. Seems like you are feeling called to connect with spirit and recognize new parts of your journey maybe?
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It may be both. Yes, I've been seeker of inner self from the beginning. For me everyday is a new journey. Spirituality isn't something very easily achieved like the worldly joys.
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I agree. For me, it has been the most challenging thing I have ever done. It requires bravery and intense amount of willingness. I had to hit a rock bottom to seek it. And I am not talking religion. That's easy. Knowing thyself isn't. And for most of my life, I had no faith whatsoever. Now I feel the best I ever have, living my best life. But it hasn't been easy.
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Knowing others is intelligence; knowing yourself is true wisdom. Mastering others is strength; mastering yourself is true power.
To know yourself, you have to be able to see yourself objectively. The “you” that knows yourself cannot be the same as the “self” that you know. If you can’t do this, you’re doomed to always just doing and feeling the stuff that you always did and felt. You can’t do anything about it if you’re always in it.
Thank you for sharing your spiritual experience, many times the Universe, life or God as you want to call it presents you with these types of things or situations for some purpose, answering your question, I think that for what purpose we came we discover it little by little, well yes it has happened to me and I have personally felt those energies in many people and situations, that shows you and takes you to that great world called Life.
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11 sats \ 0 replies \ @anna 19 Dec
I would love to remember some of the things I knew as a child.
There’s a lot of questions that flit around in my mind about finding happiness, purpose, how to achieve the things I desire.. but it does all come down to that same question of “who am I?”. I suppose understanding our soul’s true purpose would answer all the rest.
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