On the one hand the explosion of the Bitcoin price and on the other hand the move away from the basic idea of cypherpunks...

On the one hand the uncharted beauty of its future evolution and on the other hand more and more government interventionism... which undoubtedly affects its value either positively or negatively...

In the end I conclude that it makes me happy and dissapointed (not from a technological point of view) at the same time.

Maybe that's another reason why bitcoin is so unique.