I tend to be really hard on myself. I strive for constant expansion. Lately, I have been really pushing myself to let got of things that don't serve me. Most recently, this has included smoking pot, and cutting back on processed foods, gluten, caffeine. I even took a break from stacker. I feel really good about these choices overall. But sometimes I exhaust myself with my relentless expectations of growth and I lose sight of all the work I have done to better myself.
Last night I went out to a county fair, had a couple beers, ate some really "bad" food, watched a rodeo. These are all things that I would usually consider a hindrance to my growth. Things I would judge and feel shame about. And this time I really didn't. I had an amazing time. And I remembered that life doesn't always have to be pain and expansion. Sometimes it's okay to just enjoy what all this experience has to offer. And perhaps, part of our growth is learning to love ourselves wherever we are. I am not the same man I used to be. I can indulge every once in while in a healthy way and still be on an ever-deepening spiritual path. So, forever who need to hear this, be gentle to yourself. Life can be beautiful in all its forms. Choose to see the beauty in everything. Let yourself have a good time. This is a playground. And It's okay to play. I love you all. Have a beautiful day.