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I don’t dream or at least I never remember them. When I go to sleep I experience nothing and then it’s time to get up and repeat the drudgery of the day all over again. If I didn’t have to go to work or get my kids off to school, I’d probably just stay in bed all day since most days I wake up with stress headaches.

Interesting. I wonder if that means you don't dream or just don't remember your dreams. When I smoked pot daily in the past, I never remember dreams. You said your days are drudgery. So it is only outside forces that move you out of bed. Is your life not what you want it to be?

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Yeah, life has been rough the last few years. It has pretty much just been work and struggling to take care of my family and household chores on far too little sleep everyday.

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I feel you. That sounds rough. Keep it up. Trust it will get better. And it will. Life comes in waves. Sometimes it is hard. Keep the faith.

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That’s what I keep telling myself though it is getting harder to believe.

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Why the name deadbeef?

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Because of this: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Magic_number_(programming)#DEADBEEF

Though I guess it kind of reflects how I’ve felt lately.

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Well I look forward to you feeling alive. Tides will turn.

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Wow, I never could have guessed that. I was thinking it was because you were a fan of the carnivore diet or something. I am a big fan of magic numbers.

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