Yes, but this is your experience, and it will be a moment to share with people who have never experienced it. If anyone has experienced this, maybe you are one of the people who will tell what you experienced.

Been there to that sunken place not many have...so when I work and focus I'm all in fuck it damned if I do damned if I don't rather live with the know that the what if...end of the day I feel this makes and gives me an edge as a dangerous man ...where others have something to lose...idk rambling

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Sometimes the fear of feeling like that does arise. but I got rid of that feeling by diverting my attention. and I won't do it again. maybe everyone is different.