I hear you. I consider myself a conspiracy spectator. I know I'll never answer these questions, but I find watching others attempt to answer them fascinating. I don't believe conspiracy theories generically, but I don't believe official theories generically either. I believe what's independently verifiable and rarely is anything at this scale independently verifiable.

The kneejerk for anti-conspiracy theorists is that we need to shelter weak minds from conspiracies, including our own minds sometimes. I have less of this impulse than many do.