There is a reason they say "live your day like it is your last, love like you’ve never been hurt, dance like no one is watching" . There is some truth to that, it reminds us not to sweat the small stuff and pay attention what's important, like family and your health. Sorry to hear about your Father, he is in a better place now, so there is that. Use this lesson for your own kids in the future, live is two way street. Make sure you are "reachable" and teach them the same. At the same time, try to smile more and have fun as much as you can. Laugh, that's God's medicine, when you laugh it releases endorphins, makes you feel good and you live longer. Besides, no one and I mean none of us makes out of this alive.... so have fun while you at it. :-)