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i’m young, and feeling like a failure.
japan didn’t work out. i’ve been home in the states for 3 days. and the starting over is happening all over again, just with a greater awareness of the things around me.
my mind is strong with opinions. i am at a loss at what to do. and my thoughts are all over the place.
i’ve realized i hate not knowing. not knowing what to do with my life next. not knowing the direction to go. not knowing how to do what i need to to get to the life i want.
everyone around me seems to have it sort of figured out in some form or another.
i regret nothing of coming home early, or anything during my time abroad because of what i learned and how i grew.
i just really wish my inner Being wasn't so incredibly indecisive, trying to attempt everything at once, and not being able to choose what to do at the end of the day.
There is lot to unpack and we can go piece by piece but, to start, you seem to have a sense of what you want by saying "to get to the life i want". Before attempting to say anything, that's what you should expand more about first.
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This is normal bro! Take some time to think about your interests, gifts and things you want to change about your life and family. If you have a pile of laundry stacked up, you don’t start by picking up the whole pile. Start by picking up the top piece and work your way down little by little. It’s called plodding.
You are on this planet for a reason and you start by knowing what interests you and what you would like to influence in society.
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You are young , don’t give up, don’t despair , pursue your strengths
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