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Such a great reply. Thank you.
Personally, I love being the worst at a thing because it means I get newb gains, and I get the experience of lots of "aha" moments.
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The rate at which I received "aha" moments was higher.
This is true for me, too, to pathological degree. The phrase I say to people is something close to I like to be in the steep part of the S curve which means pretty early.
The very very very beginnings can be a slog for some things, and I often fall off; but if I can just get past that, I'm enamored of the rocket take-off. I gorge on that novelty, and then lose interest when it flattens out. I've managed to make a career of this due to good fortune, but it seems precarious.
You want to know my true passion? Leisure. Within that leisure, I choose what I want to learn on a given day or over a given month.
I'm afraid this might be true of me, too. The reason I say "afraid" is that there seems to be a competing need, in addition to that S-Curve need that could be served by leisure, where all of this needs to amount to something. And I don't quite know what would constitute amounting to something. It has been slippery.
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