Know what an affectionate and loving disposition would feel like? Ever be fulfilled, ever stop desiring -- lusting and longing for people and things to enjoy? Or for more time to enjoy them? Or for some other place or country -- "a more temperate clime"? Or for people easier to get along with? And instead be satisfied with what you have, and accept the present -- all of it. And convince yourself that everything is the gift of the gods

I accomplished great things. I built myself houses and planted vineyards. I planted gardens and orchards, with all kinds of fruit trees in them; I dug ponds to irrigate them. I bought many slaves, and there were slaves born in my household. I owned more livestock than anyone else who had ever lived in Jerusalem. I also piled up silver and gold from the royal treasuries of the lands I ruled. Men and women sang to entertain me, and I had all the women a man could want. Yes, I was great, greater than anyone else who had ever lived in Jerusalem, and my wisdom never failed me. Anything I wanted, I got. I did not deny myself any pleasure. I was proud of everything I had worked for, and all this was my reward. Then I thought about all that I had done and how hard I had worked doing it, and I realized that it didn't mean a thing. It was like chasing the wind—of no use at all. Ecclesiastes 2:4