I think people, most people are very honest but they are in a system of levers and pulleys and the few in charge of the variables are not disclosing the truth. I also believe in an occult aspect but regardless... There are my actions and surprisingly by asking for help I have received a bit of good fortune.

And also by accepting that I need to keep score and not just the powers to be, I need to accept that I'm playing the game and that I need to keep score and that I need to not be a slave.