It isn't fun to be in the middle of those feelings. I think I was in a similar situation a decade or so ago.
Looking back, the biggest thing I can see is this: just make a decision.
Introspection is good. Spend time on it. But also you need action. Thinking doesn't really get you anywhere, it just aims the wheels. You still have to press the accelerator.
So that's my advice: press the accelerator. Pick something (preferably something that has a chance of making you some reliable income) and stomp on the gas pedal.
You are young. You can always change things up later. Especially if you develop a skill and a bit of financial peace of mind.
You got this!
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271 sats \ 0 replies \ @kepford 2 Apr
Exactly. Just make a decision. See where it leads.
You are young @Fabs. I remember starting off in my software dev career thinking man, am I to old to start at this? I was in my twenties lol. I had already worked in several different blue collar industries and hated them. The work was fine but the real issue was that I wasn't challenging my mind enough. I was bored. Be bored is no good. Challenge is one of the things what makes life worth living.
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You say that, but what if it's the wrong decision, and all falls apart once I simply don't have that many options left anymore?
I think that, deep down, I do know what to do, namely: build a foundation.
The question is, how am I gonna do that without having the damn thing break away in a decade or two?
I've tried many things and combinations in the last years, but none worked for me long-term.
My hope is that the course I've signed up for is going to strike the balance I'm longing for, and I really hope it does, for I don't think that there's many options left for me.
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211 sats \ 2 replies \ @ChrisS 2 Apr
You are never going to be worse off trying something and it not working out than not trying something at all. You will always have options and you will have more options if you try new things along the way even if they don’t turn out to be your long term answer. If you are constantly learning and bettering yourself along the way life has a funny way of working out in ways we could never have imagined or planned for.
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21 sats \ 1 reply \ @Fabs OP 2 Apr
"If you are constantly learning and bettering yourself along the way life has a funny way of working out in ways we could never have imagined or planned for."
Hm, that's surprisingly reassuring. Are you speaking out of experience?
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21 sats \ 0 replies \ @ChrisS 2 Apr
For sure
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I started out thinking I was going to be a social worker helping chronically homeless folks find and keep housing.
Now I make pictures for bitcoiners.
There are way more options open for you than you think. At least I have always found this to be true in my own life.
Thinking that you are locked-in to something or won't be able to figure it out is easy to do, but I don't think it's true.
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Options are plenty, but time's slowly running out... 😶‍🌫️
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