I hope you learned your lesson and do not run a public node anymore.
Run private nodes if you are not well prepared for public ones.
I wrote so many guides about these aspects:
- https://darthcoin.substack.com/p/private-lightning-nodes
- https://darthcoin.substack.com/p/managing-lightning-node-liquidity
- https://darthcoin.substack.com/p/lightning-node-maintenance

Of course I saved it, just now when I'm a bit paranoid I would like to double check it :) 

Catcher

LOL so you never saved the seed?
Sorry then you are fucked.

DarthCoin

lightning

Help needed! Umbrel. 

By the way, do you know if I can find the seed phrase somewhere using ssh.  I want to check it before wiping and they moved it to the lightning app now, so I can no longer find them in settings 