No judgement from me. It seems you feel guilty for "seeking pleasure and comfort", and I specifically want to speak to that as an encouragement.

10 years from now, you'll look back at your life and either be disgusted at all the failed opportunities or proud of the strides you made. I'm not talking about material gains, but in character development. You have a choice, every moment of every day, to do things that will tip the scale one way or the other. Ive found that current guilt due to conscience pricks unrepented of almost always leads to self hatred in myself later. The answer is always doing the hard things now that you'll be proud of tomorrow. You have nobody to impress on here or in real life, you simply need to be able to live with yourself, which can be THE most difficult thing. Follow your conscience, discern whether your thoughts are because of unrestrained impulses crying out to be satisfied or if they are genuine needs. Telling yourself no in the small things (like eating one more piece of cake or sleeping in unnecessarily) helps you say no to bigger problems.

Bless you brother.