I definitely talk about SN a lot. We all sound different to ourselves though.

I certainly feel cringe and disappointed when I listen to myself too. The best solution I've found to those feelings is to try to take away something concrete after each of them so at least I have the hope of not being as cringe next time - e.g. on kr's pod I realized I was self-editing and it was slowing my speech down.

idk though. I'm still learning how to cope with speaking publicly.