Reading this I can relate my guy I suppose there’s being lonely and being alone, not telling you which to choose or which is better. Hang in there and don’t lament! I heard about bitcoin in 2009 and didn’t invest… “I could have, should have” only get you down, so I took the plunge and invested last year! No one I know thinks it’s a good option… don’t let it tear you away from family and friends! Educate and be the pioneer! God helps me in my worst and I thank him for my best! You got this