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I suspect this is a metaphor
Yes it's.
I just want to have someone react to my thoughts
My concern came from your assertion that the "dumping", not the "reaction", is what makes you feel good.
I'm not on the verge of mental collapse or suicidal meltdown
I didn't think you where! I'm just expressing what the extent of my experience is on severe issues. Your emphasis on the superficial relief rather than on the cure was what shoot off the alarm on potential addictive-dependence. This was further emphasized by your assertion that you already had expressed yourself to a professional who parsed your inquiries and showed you they where either normal or identifiable yet being listened to and understood wasn't enough for you.
If none of those patterns match your case, could you consider rephrasing?