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You have to nut up. Life will pass you by if you dont take action.
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Sometimes (many times) I want to sell all my things and leave, I don't know where, but just leave. My dream of living as a backpacker, different things to do every day, new places, new people, sounds great, but how do I afford food and lodging? small details that I must refine, but really when I feel most desperate to escape, I think about "it doesn't matter, I sell candy at a traffic light and pay for food and lodging for the day, whatever, but I just want to escape"
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Escaping your problems isnt the solution. Take one step at a time and find the solutions, make your life better and easier. Learning is part of life, its about the journey, not the end result.
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That's right, that's why I'm still here, it's just that from time to time I have those intrusive thoughts when I feel like I'm on the edge, but then I sit down, breathe for a while and continue on with my goals without doing reckless things.
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Nothing wrong with wanting more, and wanting to break out of the cycle. If you don’t already, I’d say it’s really important to have a solid community where you are. That’s going to be the most uplifting thing at your disposal if you can establish that. Friends can help you find better jobs and give encouragement and advice.
That’s what churches are supposed to be, so my recommendation would be to start there. Find a place that’s loving and welcoming, but doesn’t compromise on speaking truth.
And I will also say this - even though I’m financially stable, I find myself feeling the way you described. Life just feels like an endless hopeless rat race sometimes. Especially as a parent. It’s hard to stay focused and motivated. That’s pretty normal.
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Thank you very much for your words, sometimes you need a moment to vent and organize your thoughts, sometimes the days are overwhelming, but being in a good community makes the days go by better. Let's go ahead!
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How did you manage to read it? I deleted the post last night, I don't know why, but then I was a little embarrassed and I thought: "no one wants to read complaints on SN"
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I left it up on my phone I guess and the page was still accessible. Caught my eye and wanted to find space to read it all the way through.
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wow! Thank you very much for taking the time to read and respond.
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Thanks for sharing your thoughts!
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