I have this struggle that I am not very productive being almost 40 and never having a productive job, most jobs I had were manual and not paid very well I am kind of smart knowiing about linux and manging servers and so on. My social skills are very poor and maybe it's the root of my low paying jobs along the years, I tend to believe my life turn out this way because as I libertarian I tend to not porstitute myself in the system, or maybe I am just not smart enough. I always enjoyed manual work be it in agriculture, or in some tech lab fixing phones and complicated things, kind of forrest gump with his gun in the army. Sometimes I think I could have done much more, but maybe it would have cost me my values.